xavrant

today was a pretty good day, all things considered. just a couple of things pissed me off though:
1. why in the world do we have value education lectures? there is seriously no point in them. very few people actually attend them, and those who do attend are either going to be voluntarily powerless their whole lives or are those who know the difference between right and wrong already. what can you learn about values, ethics that your parents haven't already taught you?

2. is there such a thing as a 'cheap idea'? well in this context at least: i think shilpa shetty's winning big brother is a matter of pride for indians because it means that on some level we are beating white people at their own game. is my patriotism cheap? my racist attitude is (which i acknowledge- i don't hate all white folk though, just those who are racist themselves, like those fools on big brother).

3. i like being a girl sometimes. i hate it sometimes. does that make me feminist or not? i think men can be bastards sometimes- all of them, just like women can be bitches. does that mean i'm disloyal?


i think i should be allowed to define what i want to be, i think that if someone pisses me off or doesn't respect me enough to accept that i see things differently, i should be able to tell that person that i dislike their dismissal of my mind. i shouldn't have to worry about repercussions.
i dreamt the other night that i stood up for the rights of all my college mates... i hope for a day...

happy days are here again

hmmm....i discovered today that i am too uptight. may be i'll get ulcers n die...ugh-morbid
today is good-today is good-today was good.
today the first 2 ppl i told i liked somone told me that he was LOOKING at me, in a more-than-friends kind of way.
its insane how just hearing that ca make a person happy. it could also be the sugar rush from all the glucose i consumed today...
hmmmm...
whatever!
sunday monday happy days...

numero deux

ooh! two posts in one day! how cool is that?
i have realised that my blog is very egocentric. i'm sorry. i should talk about the shit the world is going through, not just the shit i'm going through (which is actua crap, and exists nowhere except in my mind).
naac is coming next month. they will be on campus from the 13th to the 15th. why? they will ruin valentine's day!

experiments in futility

1. existence
2. having crushes
3. trying to assimilate every idea u have ever read or heard
4. having principles, standards that other people don't get

he he. so beside the fact that i feel like a hypocrite a failure and a disappointment, my life seems to be going rather well. how about yours?

man i can be such a depressing person!

NO! made up my mind t be better....will be better....will try to be better. or is that just anither experiment in futility?